Another son....

I'm not going to pretend. I was a little bit disappointed when I heard it was a boy. He's going to be amazing, I know, and I always wanted boys... but there was something about having another baby girl to dress and having a little one named Lilly to go with my Rose....

That's what I get for over-imagining the future! I set myself up.

Let it go... and instead, welcome another little man. Another slightly olive-skinned heartbreaker, with deep brown eyes and sweet, soft hair. A little guy to wear the skulls n snakes my mom so dislikes, and I for some reason can't get enough of on a tot. I little man to wrestle with his brother and confound his sister... who knows? This one might be a gamer, he might be an introvert, he might be a poet or a dreamer, he might take after his Pepere and be a serious little mite, or take after his sister and I and be more unpredictable. I wonder if he'll love sports and cars and motorcycles like Micah already does... or if he'll be artistic or shy... he can and will be anyone.

He's kicking me as I write and I can only smile. He won't be anyone. He's going to be himself; a blend of us and our families that produces something new, a never-before-known person. He might be an Asher, or a Malachi, but whoever he is, he will be loved. And overwhelmed by his siblings. And dedicated to the Father of creation. And encouraged to really LIVE as himself, embracing all he loves and all God made him to be, and using everything to serve others and serve The Lord, living a life as full as we can encourage him to live. He will play in the sunshine and splash in the tub, he will laugh and love and make friends, and he will complete our family. At least till God sends me other people's babies to love. Then he will learn to love them along with the rest of us, and we will all move ahead together.

It seems fitting that in this week full of sun, I've learned that I will have, and anticipate having, another son. Bring it on! Summer fun, September homeschooling, October baby boy!