Unfortunately, that means I haven't been blogging as much due to circumstance, and partly to type as well.
As far as the type of pregnancy, this baby hasn't bothered me with nausea (except occasionally when I'm hungry) since the first trimester. That means that I went through many days only occasionally aware of my pregnancy, when I'd give my baby a secret smile, and move on. Thus, I neglected my blogging. Also, I realized I completely lost track of my weekly progress at one point! I'd recently told a friend I was around 14 weeks, then I sat down to count and realized I was actually at 17 weeks. I'd been wondering why I felt so big. :S Now, unless I'm mistaken, I'm around 19 weeks, and can't wait to have an ultrasound! And can feel the baby kicking lots! I'm getting ahead of myself.
OK, circumstance. Glaring, huge, almost impossible to ignore, circumstance. Phil, Rosie, baby and I drove across Canada. In a large, overloaded van. With Cyarra, our cat. Without a good camera, cuz we can't find where we packed the charger for our new Fuji.
It was epic. There were towering mountains shrouded in mist, purple after a night of rainfall. There were great vistas of fall colors, and an ocean of gently rolling prairie. A night of camping in the rain, and a 1/2 hour trip on a "range road" in Alberta cuz I missed my turn..... range roads by the way are winding, washboard, unpaved roads through the middle of beautiful, never-ending fields of nowhere, with the occasional small ranch, pond, or even tree.
However, the moments of beauty, and the little mishaps that make the trip, were eclipsed by the opportunities we had to spend time with people who I hadn't seen in far too long. That was amazing. From Katimavik family to childhood friends I was blessed to recreate some precious connections.
We arrived in Ontario, had a few days with family, and then Rose was sick and we were in the hospital with her for four days. Phil took one of the nights so I could have a good sleep, but I admit, though we've been home for two days already, I still don't quite feel rested.
That's one thing about this pregnancy, I always feel bone-tired. I keep wondering if this kid is going to emerge with all the energy in the world, because ?he? seems to be taking it from me in droves!
I'd say overall, the best thing about this pregnancy and about this trip, and the last few months in general, is I've felt a much deeper connection with my creator. Whether it's been singing while I worked on Cortes to get through my nausea, praying desperately that I could find a place I'd only visited once before when the GPS was lost, or just standing with my hand on my belly and feeling the breeze on my face, so far God and I have been pretty tight. I'm praying this is an indication of the relationship my baby will have with ?his? God. It sure has been good.
I know this is a long post, so I'll end with some exciting updates.
I started feeling the baby flutter at 17.5 weeks or so, I think because I was sitting down driving all the time, and my belly was all squished. I was definitely sure of what I was feeling by week 18, and the other night Phil felt some flutters under his hand! :D :D There's actually a little person inside me! (extra exciting cuz I haven't heard a heartbeat or anything yet, stupid unavailable doctors)
I have an OBGYN here to take me through my pregnancy! It took some looking, but I've got an appointment for the 25th, and I'm praying we'll have an ultrasound really soon after that, and if the baby decides to cooperate, we'll know that it is! :D:D I'm totally excited to start calling ?him? by name with assurance. We didn't know with Rosie, so it'll be nice to experience it both ways. IF the baby cooperates.
